well this is going to be long. just thot i'd warn ya ha.
a couple of month's ago i was watching rainman and mercury rising. i'm thinking, hey i'm a bit like these people, but i don't act quite that odd, but i've always been that analytical. so i'm wondering if maybe there are different degrees of autism or other disorders that are similar.
so anyhow, i've been searching and searching about autism. found this aq test on wired. scored 33. read some about asperger's sounds a lot like my life.
i'm a bit extreme on the relationally impairment. pretty much seems like some cruel joke, where i have no idea what the rules are. i regularly get extremely irate with the people i care about the most and won't say a word to them for days. now mind you this is a marked improvement over just leaving them completely.
i've rarely had friends my own age. now in college i did have some friends. had a misunderstanding with them, and i did not take that well at all. completely avoided everyone and i stopped attending classes completely. i had never missed a day of school in my life. I got upset in elementary school when school was closed for the summer, and i would beg the teachers for something to learn over the summer.
well anyhow when i came home from that first semester i didn't tell anyone about it at all. i was so confused. i didn't know how to talk to anyone about what had happened. i didn't understand why no one could notice anything was wrong. anyhow about 3 months later i had a breakdown. Diagnosed with schitzophrenia, released from the mental hospital a week later. strange i can never belive that i was only there a week, it seemed like months. i would pace the halls, read whatever i could get my hands on, going nuts for something to analyze that made some sense, since my life didn't make any sense at all.
ok, well, i'm thinking that's probably enough of me. least for now. whatchya guys think?
well, what do ya know that wasn't that long anyhow. well, i hardly said anything i was going to say anyhow, just sorta previewed what i was thinking about saying.